Pray about it and follow your heart.
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I'm currently married to a second year resident in emergency medicine. And if you porngh make it to the Tree of Life and still be with your partner, guess what. I had been teetering on the fringes for quite a long time, mostly coming to Church but not really being present, because I felt like an outcast as an older single.
Soon you'll feel better, because porngh not alone.